I know this truth, but then I round a corner on my journey, catch a glimpse of life from another perspective a little farther down the path and realize. . .
I need to learn it all over again.
This time it was “taking up my cross daily.” Daily, as in every day, all the time, as in fighting the temptation to save my life and embracing Christ’s instruction to lose my life for his sake.
God’s way is better, always and I need to allow him to remind me of that and to convince me of that.
Faith, trust. . .daily.
It is just so hard. Kind of like the “give us today our daily bread” thing. I would like to have things squared away for more than just today. I would like to see more.
But. . .oops! That’s not faith, and that is not how we live, truly live.
(Luke 9:23-25 NKJV) Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow Me. (24) For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. (25) For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost?”
I fight this when it comes to my time and resources and dealing with interpersonal relationships. Why do I have to spend so much of me on other people? There are things I want to do. What? Give until I am dead? Yes. That is what the Master is saying.
And that is what I will learn and know until I round another corner, and here we go again. . .
